On Sunday I really thought I was holding up quite well. On Wednesday I am not so sure. I am running out of steam before the end is in sight. I am weepy, cranky and whiny. I am wondering why I am doing all this. Wondering too, where they all went, these other people who all thought this homecoming parade was such a good idea. Wondering if anyone is going to care that St. J's is there, get curious about the MDG's, support our project. Wondering why I am overfunctioning again.
And then there is school. Yesterday ten minutes before class started I realized with horror that I had no lecture notes. I had left them at my office. Now the office is only a five minute drive, but the car was parked another five minute walk across campus. I went. There was no choice, really. So it was another rocky start. I was less than stellar. The class before that one, I forgot to print the student handouts until the last minute. And before that there was the library debacle. I am not usually like this! I'm really organized and on top of things. It's the stress, the overload. Or maybe it is those incessant reminders from God! And I want to say, OK, God, I GET it, I can't do this, I won't do this, message received, loud and clear, so stop already! I surrender. Again.
I need a big nap.