I had some good intentions today. I was going to get up early, get some cleaning done and hit the 9 a.m. yoga class before I met some folks for a reunion brunch of a Bible study group I'd gone to a couple years ago. While I did manage to get moving fairly early, instead of yoga I had to go get a tire repaired (well that's my story and I'm sticking to it anyway). The truth is there was a nail in the tire, but it was fixed in time to go to yoga and still make the brunch, but I simply didn't want to go to class. So I came back home, ran a load of dishes, potted a plant, cleaned up an old milk can and put it out on the front porch with a plant in it for a little curb appeal. Then it was off to brunch. It was good to see my old Companions in Christ friends again. We had a small turnout, but it was the right group as one of the women really needed to talk and have some support, so it was good that we gathered. Other than a brief stop at the office and a tea break with C, the majority of the rest of the day was spent reading, first in the back yard, and then on the porch swing. This was not the intent for today. I have the primer bought for the library and this was supposed to be the day for getting started on that project. But Jeffrey Eugenides Middlesex just grabbed me and wouldn't let go. It's been a while since a book has done that. So I guess I shouldn't complain. It has been suggested to me that perhaps I just needed a day off, a bit of escape, and I don't think I can really argue that. It's been kind of stressful these last few days. Things are continuing to weigh a bit on my mind. I did get a chance to talk briefly to the person formerly known as DO. We are having coffee Monday after work to talk more. I am happy with how I am doing this, not falling out, taking the high road (yep, better view for sure). Told DO I was not going to jump to conclusions until I heard the full story. There could be circumstances, I'll allow....it's complicated this situation, many crossovers in our lives, and there are issues that make things even more difficult than they might ordinarily be in a breakup, health issues, memory issues...lots of things that make fine lines even finer. It's very gray this land between reasons and excuses. I live there with my clients all the time, but it's a whole different thing when it comes home to live with me! More and more I get to think about what really matters. Who knows, maybe that will be the gift of this whole crazy thing.
Tomorrow after church L and two friends and I are going to a Powwow. He has danced in them before and is very excited about being my tour guide. The last thing he got to be an "expert" about was teaching me the difference between TV jail and real jail. I suspect this will be a whole lot more fun! Afterwards he and I are going to have a little baptismal instruction time. I'm thinking Sunday is shaping up to be a good day.
I think I'll go finish my book now. I just have to find out how it ends.