I finished classes with my students today. The last one to leave was M, the student who called and challenged me on the first day of school. So I said to her, "So, how was the class for you?" "Well, " she said, "it really turned out ok, soI guess you won after all." "Oh, no," I told her, "It was not about that, it was never about winning. I just wanted to check in with you, to see how it was, if you felt the class turned out ok for you...." The she said something amazing. "Yeah," she said, "I felt like such an idiot after I called you, I guess I jst felt like I was in over my head or something....I felt like a real fool." "It's ok," I told her, "we all get scared sometimes." "Everybody?" She asked, rather incredulously. "Sure." I said. "Everybody!" "Oh" And off she went down the hall.
I'm not real sure what all they learned about the history of psych this semester. But the teacher learned a whole lot about herself. Clealy this was where I needed to be. And clearly I need to be done. I am back in gratitude tonight. School's out. I'm reclaiming some time and space in my life. Thanks be to God.