Saturday, August 02, 2008

Sad News

L has been arrested. These last two weeks have been like watching an accident in slow motion. Like watching someone falling in a dream. Running to catch them with legs of lead. Knowing what the final moment would be but being unable to stop it. Ever since his baby's mom pulled D away he has been in a kind of reckless self-destruct mode and nothing mattered. He called me yesterday afternoon. I know now it was a kind of goodbye. I think he knew what was coming. He's very smart in the way of these things and I think he knew he had pushed it just too far. His PO tried not to violate him, I really believe that. Technically, this could have happened three weeks ago. But he wanted to try to keep him out, let him get a job, do some therapy, see if there was some way something else could be pulled together for L in the system for treatment. The problem is, L gave up on himself. He told me yesterday it was all just too hard, that he just did not know how to live on the outside.

I'm not sure what's next for him. I know he has time left to serve. If what I know is true, it's something like 110 days from the last sentence. I don't know if that's it....or now if there is more. It all depends on how much if he will be here or elsewhere. Visiting hours start at one today. I will be there.

11 comments:

Silent said...

(RevDrKate)

L is blessed to have you in his life. God go with you.

God_Guurrlll said...

prayers ascending.

peace and love to both of you.

writing as eliza said...

(((RDK))) Praying for you and for L

Songbird said...

I'm so sorry to hear this.

Rev SS said...

So very sorry. What they all said.

Ruth Hull Chatlien said...

Kate, I'm so sorry. I know that it's not uncommon for this to happen, but I was hoping for better for L. I'll continue to pray for both of you.

DogBlogger said...

Yes, what they have all said. This is such an unimaginably difficult situation.

(((RevDrKate)))

Diane said...

(RDK) praying for you and for L at this time.

ElastiGirl said...

((rdk)) - prayers for you both - we're with you in spirit as you go to visit

Mary Beth said...

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mid-life rookie said...

Rats and double darn. I know this is painful for both of you. As I contemplate how easy it would be for either or both of you to give up, I am reminded of a quote i read somewhere, "The only failure is to quit trying." God be with both of you. Prayers ascending.