Wednesday, July 11, 2007

Blogger's Block

I seem to have blogger’s block. And from what I’ve been reading in some of my sister blogger’s comments, I’m not alone. Of course having nothing to say doesn’t seem to stop me from trying to say it. Apparently I’m not alone in that either, according to the very apt cartoon over on Barbara B's Views From the Road. Though I am full of thoughts, full of words. They kept me awake, populated my dreams. But when I have tried to gather them in some sort of an orderly fashion they have flown off and refuse to be written. I hate it when I can’t write. It makes me feel wifty and insubstantial. Like I am drifting along and somehow missing part of what’s happening. Disconnected somehow from some essential part of myself. I am noticing that I am losing a bit of Witness Consciousness these past few days. I feel dull. Bland and blah. And at the same time I’m feeling more hyper and edgy. Spiritual practices are of the going through the motions sort. Bring myself to the mat, to the prayer book, to the Scripture. Sit. Breathe. Pray. Show up. But it is not all as grim as it could be. There are things I know now that I did not used to know that bring me some comfort. One is that this matters. It counts to show up and just sit. And breathe. And pray. Even if that prayer is just simply, “help, I’m here and I don’t like it.” The other thing I know is that this will pass. Nothing lasts. Not even blogger’s block. I’m writing, after all.

6 comments:

Sally said...

Bloggers Block happens periodicaly- I think it is a good reminder that we need to listen before we write... I get it every few months or so...

Prayers to get you writing again soon in the meantime enjoy other aspects of life :-)

Katherine E. said...

Yes, there's an ebb and flow, isn't there? Still, I love your words here -- "wifty," "Witness Consciousness."

From this reader's perspective, anyway, you appeared to have already punched a pretty good sized hole in that wobbly ole' block!

Katherine E. said...

Oh, and thanks for the one.org banner idea. I'm copying you!

Tandaina said...

So good to see a post from you again. We all run dry sometimes, in our writing and our prayers. Sometimes the only way through the dryness feels like slogging.

Here's praying for a bit of spiritual rain for you.

RevDrKate said...

Thanks all, for the support and prayers, as always! Katherine, absolutely, I snatched it from someone else! Isn't it cool how it rotates?

Barbara B. said...

I love your thought: "it counts to show up"! wow--yes! important point!