Sunday, April 06, 2008

Thinking about Freedom

This poem by Hugh Prather was given to us during the BE for reflection. It hit me strongly the first time I read it and has been part of my meditations this week.

Freedom

No one grants you freedom. You are free if you are free.
No one enthralls you.
You enthrall yourself
And when you have
You may hand your tether
To another
To many others
To all others
To yourself

Perhaps this last is worst of all
For this slave master is hardest to see
And hardest to rebel against
But he is the easiest to hate
And to damage

I do not know how to tell you to be free
I wish I did
But I do know some signs of freedom
One is doing what you want to do
Though someone tells you not to
Another is doing what you want to do
Though someone else tells you to.

There is so much here that speaks to where I am right now. I have been my own slave master, and the task is to set myself free in the quest for authenticity. In this moment that is painful and rather costly. But there are those signs of freedom that he speaks of as well.

This is going to be a week of transition. Old things are passing away and new things not yet come. I have never liked the in-between, as much as I tend to tell others there are there riches to be had there. Funny how all those things I have been telling others are coming home to roost.

The emotions are complex. Heartache, gratitude, confusion, security....a total stew. It's no wonder I'm exhausted and seem to be having a little trouble tracking the day to day stuff. Getting my taxes done, my room cleaned and my laundry finshed this weekend seems to have wiped me out. The idea of going back to work tomorrow seems a bit overwhelming. Sleep has become my friend, and thank God, I can go there!

I am so grateful for prayer and support. My Soul Sisters and wonderful friends here, the blogger community....I can literally feel the support carrying me through. One day at a time.

8 comments:

Jan said...

Glad you can feel the love and support. Prayers.

will smama said...

(((RevDrKate)))

And I mean that.

God_Guurrlll said...

((RevDrKate))

Since I got off the boat the song that has been running through my mind is "Amazing Grace (My Chains are Gone)." by Chris Tomlin. These words especially touch me. I have changed a few words in the lyrics to make it more inclusive.

My chains are gone, I've been set free
My God, my Savior has rescued me
And like a flood God's mercy reigns
unending love, amazing grace

My God has promised good to me
God's word my hope secures
God will my shield and portion be
As long as life endures.

Because I have felt the love of God through you all on this retreat, I have been set free.

Thank you.

cheesehead said...

I've been thinking about you and the transitions in your life.

Prayers for your freedom, true freedom.


(((RDK)))

The Vicar of Hogsmeade said...

(((RDK)))

Ruby said...

(((RDK))) Hoding you in prayer today.

Songbird said...

Hugs and blessings, RDK.

writing as eliza said...

(((RevDrKate)))

prayers and much love.