Wednesday, October 29, 2008

God Watching Day 29...early post

"Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now." Matthew 6:34a The Message

I seem to be having a very hard day today. It's only just past noon and I have been in tears twice and have been close to one of those panic things and we won't even talk about my stomach and it's opinion on the whole affair. I have no idea what's up. Yes I had to do some "stuff" that connected me back with the thing, make a phone call to get some information, leave a message for another person...but these are the folks who are supposedly my advocates, so it's not like there was any real scary stuff going on. I suppose it was just the stir factor. And yesterday I spent about forty minutes in the presence of someone who is directly related to this business. Staring across a table in a meeting in fact. It was hard. Very. So I am having worry thoughts and anxiousness, struggling hard not to go to the worst case lose it all scenarios that my brain wants to create. I'm trying to hold on to a phrase that I heard in a lovely song that I listened to in a CD that a friend gave me, "God is holding your life." I'm trying to just let that hold me, to remember that my wing is always there to run to, and that I am beloved and called by God and prayed for by the greatest group of friends anyone could hope for.

7 comments:

Choralgirl said...

Breathe, Kate. You can do this. I've been in that place. It WILL get easier.

Ruth Hull Chatlien said...

Choralgirl is right. Take deep breaths. And know that we are praying for you.

(((((((Kate)))))))

Magdalene6127 said...

"God is holding your life." Yes. Amen.

Songbird said...

(((kate)))

Hot Cup Lutheran said...

prayers for you...

God_Guurrlll said...

Praying for you.

((kate))

mid-life rookie said...

No wonder why you've been in my thoughts and prayers today. We're still with you along with God who is holding your life.