Monday, October 06, 2008

God Watching Day 6

"Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now." Matthew 6:34a The Message

There has been something hanging for a while now in my life, the details of which I cannot blog. It's a waiting for the shoe to fall kind of thing, and it's now falling. I want to say very clearly that I know that God is not doing this to me. This is not a "test" of my faith. But all the same, my faith is being pulled to its limits. This is the place where the rubber meets the road....do I believe in all of these things that I preach...yes, to others but mostly to myself...."Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life...Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don't get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes." Can I trust that no matter what happens, all will be well somehow? Do I really know that I am called to this place for this time to do this work, all of it, and that God will help me deal with this hard thing that is part of it? Can I claim myself in darkness as well as light and know that this too is what God is doing?

8 comments:

Ruth Hull Chatlien said...

Whatever it is, I hope God gives you clarity . . . and comfort or assurance if you need them.

mompriest said...

oh kate...I had just this same kind of conversation with my friend M2...and have had a similar conversation in my own life...really really hard to get into the pulpit during days like these....but I've done that too, with a smile on my face and deep sorrow in my heart....

prayers for you

St. Casserole said...

thinking of you, praying for you.
Grateful for you, your life and your honesty here.

Magdalene6127 said...

THE questions, no? Thank you for sharing... you are held in prayer.

"PS" (a.k.a. purple) said...

May the darkness and light balance each other in the days to come.

imngrace said...

You are not alone. I hear you. I'm asking the same questions and not finding the answer I want, but knowing that the answer rests in God's care. I've been in this place before and I can honestly say, YES (boldly) to your questions. You will be taken care of in whatever this is. You will find God walking with you. You will be sustained in your faith.

Prayers for you.

mid-life rookie said...

I hate those rubber and road moments, but still find them necessary to having real faith not just theory faith. Know we are praying for your peace and well-being.

Rev SS said...

" ... God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes. Can I trust that no matter what happens, all will be well somehow?"

Yes .. I know you can, do, and will. Holding you in prayer.

(((o))) Kate